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First off, I’m officially no longer an employee with Hollywood Video. I don’t really wish to write out the details but suffice it to say the manager got very upset when I decided to use a sick day and threatened to remove the rest of my shifts. I called back a little later and told her to go ahead and take me off the schedule. So I’m free.

That brings us to the second thing. I’m moving to the Beaverton area and acting as a new roommate for Corey. For anyone that reads this and doesn’t know who he is he’s a past coworker of mine when I was down in Springfield that had moved down there and later moved back up to the Portland area where he was originally from. He’s down a roommate and I’d like some change. Having someone to talk to and hang out with should help me in some mental ways as well since Jenny isn’t able to be my friend anymore so losing that has been difficult.

I intend to learn to drive as soon as possible. There’s a multitude of reasons why I wish to do so but the sooner the better.

Once I settle in over there I hope to get a job as quickly as possible as well, which is common sense. I need money to survive and as it is I’ll likely be at least two weeks without a job if not three or so.

It seems Jenny is very quickly dealing with me as someone that’s not part of her life which is still an issue I have, mainly because it really kills my confidence, but I’ll get through that I suppose. Not like I have any option, eh?

If I seem a little down or upset it’s likely something along those lines. Give me time and I’ll try to be a happier Nick. No promises.

This new game is called Walk Down the Street and Try Not to Cry. I’m doing alright at it but the pedestrians have won a few rounds.

When I got into work tonight the first thing one of my coworkers told me was, “You sound like ass.” Turns out that happens when you’re upset for awhile. Who knew!?

Anyhow, two days off so I’ll have an update related to work and possibly a tiny bit more on Jenny and then I’ll try to get at least a Part Three put up for New York. I’ll continue referring to her as girlfriend in those posts since she was at the time so don’t be confused by that.

I need sleep and to read some Potter. That helps take my mind off of things, thankfully.

I’ll continue more of the entries about New York City but there’s a pretty good update right now but I don’t have much time to write.

I put in my two week’s notice and the manager got it this morning. Fuck you Hollywood.

Jenny and I have actually been broken up since the return from New York, essentially, but ever the optimist I had hoped it would be a short-lived break. No, that isn’t the case. I’m stupid and still hold out hope but I don’t see that changing anytime soon. I’m single again and my next few nights will likely be entertaining as I lie in bed and sob. I can’t wait.

I’ll write more, perhaps tonight, but don’t expect many details about Jenny and I. Frankly I’d simply rather not get into it as I’ve found when my thoughts are allowed to go rampant (such as walking down the street, sitting on the bus) my thoughts go to her and I start crying. It’s really fun, I look like a lunatic.

I’ll add more about the job stuff later.

Edit: Just noting that the two are not related. I didn’t lose her due to quitting my job, in case there is any confusion there.

And so we begin Independence Day…

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Part One of how many? Just matters how much I wish to type at a time and how I eventually separate things. I don’t intend to make it all one entry, that’s for sure.

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I’m too tired to write much since the only sleep I’ve had in the last twenty-seven or so hours was what I got on the plane ride back, which was several hours of sleep but constantly broken up with bouts of restlessness. Didn’t help that I sat next to two, angry, large men that took up all the room.

Anyhow, I’d love to write a bit about our adventures but be assured I had a fantastic time, I wish Jenny and I could have flown together so things would have been simpler, and I miss her. Oh boo hoo.

But I have tomorrow off and a bunch of her stuff is over here. Know what that means? An excuse to hide her away in my room never to escape.

Oh yeah, and we didn’t go to the Statue of Liberty despite spending around a week there. Heh.

Monday, July 2, 2007
Continental Airlines # 685

Portland International (PDX) to Newark Liberty Int’l (EWR)
Departure (PDX): July 2, 9:55 PM PDT (evening)
Arrival (EWR): July 3, 5:55 AM EDT (morning)

This is an overnight flight.

Class: Economy

Seat assignment: 28A

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Monday, July 9, 2007
Continental Airlines # 584

Newark Liberty Int’l (EWR) to Portland International (PDX)
Departure (EWR): July 9, 6:45 AM EDT (morning)
Arrival (PDX): July 9, 9:39 AM PDT (morning)

Class: Economy

Seat assignment: 28A

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So I somewhat forgot about this thing. Well, not really. More than anything I just haven’t really wanted to devote a chunk of time to writing an entry.

Suffice it to say I’m still alive. I’m also still working most the time and when not working I’m with Jenny. I intend to get another job very soon and part of that plan is already coming about with me using my vacation time in a few weeks. Once that’s used up I’ll definitely be looking for pretty much anything other than what I’m already doing. Odds are I’ll be going into more retail but I wouldn’t mind getting something that doesn’t deal with helping customers every day and perhaps just net something that’s simple like clerical.

I have plenty to actually add but I don’t want to make one massive entry. I’ll try to get a couple more out really soon, perhaps all in a row, but at least split in some fashion so everything is a bit more categorized.

The only thing I’ll note now is that I’ll be taking a flight somewhere in a few weeks and it’ll be pretty fucking awesome. More details will come when I write next.